So I am going to rant! OK being single sucks at times. But the issue really surprises me at times. Today I surprised Anisten and we went to Walmart to buy a new bike for her, as the old one was pretty small by now. Well off course the guys who built the bike at Walmart couldn't take the extra 5 seconds to pump up the wheels to the proper pressure so I had to detour on the way home to a gas station. So I find myself boiling on the inside, and realize that pumping up the tires is something I am more than capable of doing but guess what? I want a man to do it for me. Does this make me weak? No I think just honest.God did make man and woman to be together and be helpmates to one another so I think my anger, desire, longing whatever you want to call it is ingrained in me. So the problem is I am alone....... And yes that really stinks!
Oh well since I don't have the power to change this today I guess I have to rely on the wisdom of My Heavenly Father. One day at a time I go and I must remember that his Grace is enough to get me through each day. Hopefully it wont be too long of a wait.
1 comment:
welcome to the world of single parenting! i remember one time about 3 years ago - i arrived to work in tears cause i had no oil in my car and i had to put in gas in the car - i prety much have always done that stuff anyways and am very capable but i was overwhelmed - besides getting the kids off, getting ready for work, dealing with the bils, etc, it just seemed like one more thing to do - i did indeed need a helpmate!!! I can relate to how you feel Maria is can be very overwhelming . .. for me it was more just needing a break . . . time to breath without the 3 kids needing something from me - as they get older they need us more i think, not less. hang in there Maria - you will be OK and its good to vent! I do have a helpmate now, however, that can come with its own set of well, need i say more :-)
Ciao friend!
Vaness
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